people are complicated

So here am I again trying to voice some of my thoughts about human.. from.. the perspective as a human. After meeting and talking to people with different personalities. I'm not saying that what I going to say is true or fixed but just another piece of my perspective.
exp 1: For a girl who's saying another girl as judgmental material but at the same time criticizing other girls for wearing provocative, doesn't that just make u the same as judgmental as the girl you mentioned? because u pretty much just judged someone on their appearance.
exp2: Walking in a gallery pretended with "professional" attitude but talked rudely to elder woman for being noisy and lack of respect to the surroundings/paintings. But how is your own attitude make u any different from the others even if you were trying to be "highly moral" infront of your favorite artist paintings? Didn't that just make u the same as ignorant and less respectful to the paintings for being angry with other people under this kind of circumstances? Do you really think that acting in that way in a perhaps-high-class gallery/exhibition would make you any different or better than anybody else? really? how much is your understanding for your so-called ART?
exp3: Everyone wants to be different, listen to songs that are different than everyone else.. saying that pop songs are made for the sake of people liking. How do you explain your appreciation toward songs that less people listen just because it's "different"(or maybe that's what you called music)? of course you can talk about how those songs have deeper meanings and stuff, but there can be many reasons for one to like something that makes them feel comfortable. So why won't you just stop judging and let people to like things based on their own reasons. It's like you're trying not to judge, but you have already proved you're just as ignorant and pretentious during the process.
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Maybe typing this pile of text has already proven I'm also a judgmental person. But what I'm trying to say is that humans are weird creatures, the hardest thing for me to be as a human is to be honest to myself yet it is also one of the thing I never stop trying to be and still find it difficult. Yet, there are always contradiction happen to the people around us including ourselves, the funny thing is we are always the last one to ever find out the conflict within our own.

like

Its been awhile again ever since i blogged.. but today.. there is something that i must mention.Recently i just finished a project in uni and there was this f*ckin irritating teacher who trying to mess with me.. as she was probably the one who is gonna mark my project.. i have gt no choice but to consult with this ignorant "teacher" who was so fulled of herself and ofcourse.. most other students think she is disgusting as well.anyway.. she was the type of person who just not gonna appreciate the effort of others no matter how hard they try.. and no matter how hard i try to reach her expectation.. she just focused on criticizing instead of giving real advise..she is just that irritating even as a human. And because all this.. i was feeling so distressed.. however.. when i think of my days during foundation.. i realized that even though i didnt achieve much of super duper good grades for my foundation project.. i still love all the pieces that i have done during that period.. and all the experiences and artworks are still my favourite compare to degree.. this is when i realized i should always do whatever i like for this moment..and i dont have to care about reaching any expectation as long as i enjoy the moment doing what i want to do.. because.. if u cant please other no matter how much u have tried.. why not save the effort and time on creating something that you truly like and make u yourself proud..? you can chase after or set any target u like for your own future.. but never let the future ruin your presence.

A call

So here am i posting again.. After the last few months.. As information, i have not been in really good condition lately.. Mostly stuff from Uni and laptop issue i had (tho its probably fixed now) Anyway, i just finished calling with my father..well we usually dont have much common topic together as we dont talk as much eventho we are on call.. So.. Jz now he was just asking how am i doin as usual and i just replied that I've feeling stressed wit my study lately.. Good thing was he asked me not to get too hard on myself and rather just try my best.. And asked me to call him anytime when I dont feel well before we ended the call..while whole conversation only lasted for maybe 15 mins.. Maybe its just my condition.. I literally shed a tear right after the call..

Whenever I'm slacking off

Whenever I'm slacking off, I like to think about some deep theories.. so what I've thought today is >> There are ppl who changed gradually according to period of time (oh well.. everyone changes), for some of those ppl who chg to way better often feel proud of themselves n thnking they would do anythng not to go back to how they were before. But, wats important for me is.. ppl may hate their pasts, but one should be grateful n not forget about all of it.. becz those r part of us which we cant get rid of, n those r wat made us stronger today. And for me, those who couldnt accept their pasts are weak n lost eventhough they may appear to be stronger based on the outside. ///////////////////////// If you noe wat i min. :)

the day i skipped class :X

So yeap, I skipped my lecture and tutorial for today becz im already in the easter holiday's mood. Bt anyway, I did go to a couple of places in city today.. 1st i was reli desperate for a good, satisfying breakfast.. bt instead, I was too desperate that i ended up having just breads for breakfast.. then, aftr I spent sum money on cosmetics, i made my way to NGV by tram and only found out that it's usually closed on every Tues.. instead of chilling at NGV coffee place, I had to make my way back to the nearby Starbucks to just.. sit, relaxed n chilled.. well.. while reading the script of my club's production..(wic i did not understand a sht abt the story since it was too abstract) So when I was sitting on the tram waiting to reach starbucks, an old lady behind me was suddenly passed out.. so there were few ppl who were taking care of the lady and informing the tram's driver abt the fainted lady.. well, she wasnt reli fainted bt she wasnt conscious.. so wen the driver asked her hw does she felt, she was saying sumthin lik "im sweaty.. bla bla bla" and stuff u see.. her face was clearly pale tho.. then the driver quickly got her sum water and stopped the tram service while ther was another older man thumbs up at the driver and praised him "..goo..d..good.." :P Since the tram is no longer operating at dat moment, I had to get the tram behind.. so there were quite loads of ppl who were entering so luckily i gt a seat, bt i was ended up having to giv my seat to an old man who happened to stand infront of me... and it was my 1st time of actually asking the person to take my seat rather than just get off my seat silently and hope for d person to take my seat...well, atlis I done a good deed when i was skipping classes.. LOL /////////////////////////////////////////////////////////// oh well, tho i skipped my classes.. I still had a pretty good and smooth day.. atlis I actually felt alive by wondering around the city even just alone rather than sitting in tutorial pretending to be brainstorming of ideas.. well, I wasnt reli alone all day, I met wit yoyo and bernice... bt d point was I realized that Im trying too hard to not being stressed when its actually the main reason of y I'm stressed lately.. or u can put it this way >> Im stressing of trying not to be stressed.. if u noe wat i min..

2013

So... It's finally 2013 and I'm still alive... the last summer I did not do shit.. well.. dats not the point.. the point is, I realized i should just keep blogging and stuff.. who knows it might actually be helpful for my rationale writtings or sum sht lik dat.. :X alright.. so based on my zodiac, dis year supposed to be pretty good for rooster ppl.. and i too believe it.. but somehow i just felt lik sumthin's missing.. as if im sort of afraid/bored and I cant really figure out wat is it.. the good news is I've finally got into a chinese theatre club in melb uni as the editor there.. well, the ONLY editor i supposed.. and wat the club members said to me wen finding out im the new editor was >> " wowww, being an editor is real hard and u gonna hav loads of works to do!!" << and i do believe it.. so.. *fingers crossed* //////////////////////////////////////////////// Anyway, the first thing i learned in this year is dat.. well.. as usuall.. One should always be open-minded whther to urself or other people.. In contrast.. People are not always like what we think they are, or what they say make them what they are.. people lie, pretend and stuff.. not even with the reason to be understood by other people nor themselves... which is really complicated for me to trust others.. So I guess I should just keep calm and .. owhh well.. *fingers crossed* Hope this is gonna be a good year ahead :3 <3