my current mental state

Im not in gud condition mentally.. well, actually physically too.. /////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////// anyway, I nida submit alot of stuffs on next week and now Im totally freaked out cz of .. well.. I hvnt really done much thngs.. plus, I have realized that I lost sumthing important as an designer/artist(whatever you cal that) and even as human being.. which was I had forgotten how to dream D: until ytd I noticed I forgot how to draw underwater world which everyone used to draw since kindergarten/primary school.. and this made me realized that how could I ever forgot something as important?? yes, my techniques have improved thru all thes years, but it's just... goshhhh.. and I've been eating alot recently..(yess, we're talking abt A LOT) aissshhhh, hope i could recover as soon as possible.. no!!! I have to overcome thes issues !! ///////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////// anyway, I've been planning that I would really love to further my study in new york after graduate my degree cz I don't wanna stay at the same few countries all the time, I wanna see and explore more in many different countries!! :) ........here am i , speaking abt new york and not finishing my projects.. god bless me /.\